Tonight a man in Headland Alabama shot 2 police officers and one so far has died. The officer who died was Dexter Hammond a man i have known for many years. He taught me Taek won do many years ago. So my heart is breaking for him and his family and also for the Henry County Sheriff officer who is in surgery as we speak fighting for his life. But even through all of that the part that scares me the most is my brother Steven. Steven just started working for the Henry County Sheriffs office and was on duty tonight. He was called to the scene but he is safe. I think how easily it could have been my brother to have been killed. If he were the closest officer to the scene and arrived first he would prob be dead.
This makes me think how important it is to tell people how much you love them. Steven and i have always had a special relationship. We have an obvious but unspoken love for each other. I dont know what i would have done if he would have been one of the men to get shot tonight. When Steven joined the Henry County Sheriff department it worried me but i thought nothing bad ever happens in Henry County i guess this just shows if something like this can happen here it can happen anywhere. So keep the ones you love close and never leave mad and always tell people you love them even if you dont like them at the moment. You may never get the chance to tell them again.
Please pray for Dexter Hammond's family and for the Henry County Sheriff deputy who is fighting for his life may he stay strong and win his battle.
Friday, April 24, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
Karma
Karma I have always been a big believer in karma. I thought if you done good things that you would get good thing and if you done bad things bad things would happen. Well tonight i think i have lost all faith in karma. I always try to do good things. I always put others needed first even before my own. So when my dad got down on his luck and needed a loan i more than happily gave him the 5000 he needed until he got back on his feet. Well that was a few months ago and his situation has still not changed so he has been unable to pay back the loan. So this sounds like i have some good karma coming my way. Well think again. As i have stated before that bank did not like the comparison properties for the loan on our new house so it has been in upper management for them to decide what to do. Well it looks like we are going to have to put 10% down not the 5% that we had planned. Well the 10% is something that i just don't think we can to it would be stretching up just about as far as we can go and i don't want to use all the money we have in savings because if something happens we would be screwed. But here is where the karma comes in the amount that may mean the difference between us getting and loosing the house is $5000. The exact amount i lent my dad.
I don't know how to feel about this on one had my dad needed the money really bad he was about to loose his house so i don't regret giving him the money but in a way i feel by giving him the money i have let my family down. We may very well not get our house because i put someone else first. I feel horrible and all i can do is pray something works out where the 5000 does not matter. The bank is doing some kind of program trying to find some comparison homes but there is nothing saying they will find any. I am so tired of worrying about this house. I have done so many thinks for so many people this year. I just hope god and karma finally smile down on me and help us get into this house. I can not get Gracie into school or have more children until we move. The closest school is 35 miles away that puts me in the car for 3 hours a day or more just to take her to and from school. I just dont know what to do. I just pray it all works out.
I don't know how to feel about this on one had my dad needed the money really bad he was about to loose his house so i don't regret giving him the money but in a way i feel by giving him the money i have let my family down. We may very well not get our house because i put someone else first. I feel horrible and all i can do is pray something works out where the 5000 does not matter. The bank is doing some kind of program trying to find some comparison homes but there is nothing saying they will find any. I am so tired of worrying about this house. I have done so many thinks for so many people this year. I just hope god and karma finally smile down on me and help us get into this house. I can not get Gracie into school or have more children until we move. The closest school is 35 miles away that puts me in the car for 3 hours a day or more just to take her to and from school. I just dont know what to do. I just pray it all works out.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
House buying Drama
House buying is one big pain in the butt after the other. Just when i thought everything was in order i find out we have yet another obstacle we have to over come. Our loan application was sent to underwriting and our application on the personal side with through with no problems at all but they did not like the appraisal. Just the word appraisal makes me want to scream these days. How can they not like an appraisal the house appraised for 185,800 and we are getting it for 177 that is a big difference. The lender apparently does not like the comparison properties the appraiser used. I don't know what is going to happen next. Our application has been sent to management so it is up to them. They will push it through and we will not have a problem or we will have to get another appraisal which is another 350$ that we don't want to spend or they will require us to put more money down which we cannot do. I just don't understand why this has to be so hard We have no debt we have a little money in the bank flawless credit and we own a house and 3 cars. What is the problem. I just wish it was all over it is stressing me out way to much. I just have to pray the lender calls today or tomorrow with good news.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Whats new
Well it has been a few days since i posted last and it has been a busy few days. Easter has come and gone and it was lovely. I took Gracie to an egg hunt in Blakley and she found the golden egg. I dont think she fully understood what that meant but she was very proud of herself. lol.
My brother's step daughter who is only 5 is going to have surgery on Thursday. Her thyroid is growing through her neck bone. That just sounds like it should hurt. I am so worried about her. Even though she is only my step niece I love her and want the best for her. She has to go to the children's hospital in Burmingham for the surgery so i am going to keep her brother and sister for a few days. I have kept Shyanne before but never Lucas. I am a little nervous about keeping them I have no idea what to do with a boy and i dont know Lucas that well and he is staying with me for 2 maybe 3 nights. I am sure it will be fine though i am pretty good with kids. I just hope i dont go completely crazy with all of them running around. I may not see Drew for a few days he will prob stay at work. lol But i will do whatever is needed to get little Tori feeling better.
It is getting closer to closing time on our new house. We went by today to see what all of this rain has done to the creek that runs through the property but all looked to be ok. The house was fine so that is all that mattered to me anyway. I mean how often am i gong to be in the woods we all know i am not the out doorsy person. lol I am so ready for the house to close though so we can start getting ready to move in. Drew told me today that Linda and Roscoe (the in laws) want to buy Gracie a new bedroom suit. A generous offer but the only string attached is they get to pick it out. I am just not sure about this. I mean will they keep in mind that Gracie is not going to be little forever so she needs a bed she can still sleep in when she gets bigger and also the room that is going to be Gracie's is small i hope they keep that in mind. Oh well i guess it is out of my hands now Drew already told them ok i just wish i could have had a say in it. After all i am her mother and i know what she needs. It will all work out though im sure.
I think the whole bedroom suit thing came up because i told my in laws this morning not to tell Gracie they were going to come get her anymore unless they were sure they were going to come. They told her 3 weeks ago they were going to come get her that week and let her spend the night with them but they never came. Then the next week they told her they were going to come get her that week and take her to Chucky Cheese but they never came and then when they came over on Sunday they told her they were going to take her to the beach this week and today Linda called me and told me they were not going to take her. So that make 3 weeks in a row Gracie got let down and i was just tired of seeing her cry and ask me when Nana was comming to get her so i had to put a stop to it. It had gone on long enough. I understand things come up but Gracie is little and she does not understand that. So i just told them to not tell her they were comming again unless they were sure they were really going to come get her i dont think that was being unfair if it was that is just to bad. I have to look out for what is best for Gracie and nobody else.
My brother's step daughter who is only 5 is going to have surgery on Thursday. Her thyroid is growing through her neck bone. That just sounds like it should hurt. I am so worried about her. Even though she is only my step niece I love her and want the best for her. She has to go to the children's hospital in Burmingham for the surgery so i am going to keep her brother and sister for a few days. I have kept Shyanne before but never Lucas. I am a little nervous about keeping them I have no idea what to do with a boy and i dont know Lucas that well and he is staying with me for 2 maybe 3 nights. I am sure it will be fine though i am pretty good with kids. I just hope i dont go completely crazy with all of them running around. I may not see Drew for a few days he will prob stay at work. lol But i will do whatever is needed to get little Tori feeling better.
It is getting closer to closing time on our new house. We went by today to see what all of this rain has done to the creek that runs through the property but all looked to be ok. The house was fine so that is all that mattered to me anyway. I mean how often am i gong to be in the woods we all know i am not the out doorsy person. lol I am so ready for the house to close though so we can start getting ready to move in. Drew told me today that Linda and Roscoe (the in laws) want to buy Gracie a new bedroom suit. A generous offer but the only string attached is they get to pick it out. I am just not sure about this. I mean will they keep in mind that Gracie is not going to be little forever so she needs a bed she can still sleep in when she gets bigger and also the room that is going to be Gracie's is small i hope they keep that in mind. Oh well i guess it is out of my hands now Drew already told them ok i just wish i could have had a say in it. After all i am her mother and i know what she needs. It will all work out though im sure.
I think the whole bedroom suit thing came up because i told my in laws this morning not to tell Gracie they were going to come get her anymore unless they were sure they were going to come. They told her 3 weeks ago they were going to come get her that week and let her spend the night with them but they never came. Then the next week they told her they were going to come get her that week and take her to Chucky Cheese but they never came and then when they came over on Sunday they told her they were going to take her to the beach this week and today Linda called me and told me they were not going to take her. So that make 3 weeks in a row Gracie got let down and i was just tired of seeing her cry and ask me when Nana was comming to get her so i had to put a stop to it. It had gone on long enough. I understand things come up but Gracie is little and she does not understand that. So i just told them to not tell her they were comming again unless they were sure they were really going to come get her i dont think that was being unfair if it was that is just to bad. I have to look out for what is best for Gracie and nobody else.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Easter Bunny
Tomorrow is Easter but in our house the Easter Bunny came a little early. Drew has to work on Easter. It sucks but since we are buying a house we need the money so i cant complain to much. When Gracie went to the potty tonight we took her Easter basket and put it by the kitchen door and told he we thought we heard the Easter bunny in the kitchen. When she walked in she saw her basket and she got so excited. She got a tea party set in her basket and she or should i say we played for an hour then she took a break and we played some more. lol We even got Drew on the floor sipping pretend tea. The things we do for our kids right.
Well tomorrow Gracie and I are on our own for most of the day. I think i am going to hide some eggs for her in the morning and let her go egg hunting. Then around 2 we are going to Blakley to an egg hunt at Kolimokie Mounds. Alot of my family will be there. It should be alot of fun. Then i have to hurry home because my in laws are coming over to see Gracie. So tomorrow will go from having not much to do to being kinda hectic and busy. I thrive on hectic and busy so it should be fun. I am also making Easter dinner tomorrow night. A baked ham fresh peas and corn, dinner roll and strawberry shortcake. Yummm My father in law is also bringing me some of his dressing. So Monday i am most defiantly going to they gym lol. Well check back in tomorrow and i will tell you how it all went.
Well tomorrow Gracie and I are on our own for most of the day. I think i am going to hide some eggs for her in the morning and let her go egg hunting. Then around 2 we are going to Blakley to an egg hunt at Kolimokie Mounds. Alot of my family will be there. It should be alot of fun. Then i have to hurry home because my in laws are coming over to see Gracie. So tomorrow will go from having not much to do to being kinda hectic and busy. I thrive on hectic and busy so it should be fun. I am also making Easter dinner tomorrow night. A baked ham fresh peas and corn, dinner roll and strawberry shortcake. Yummm My father in law is also bringing me some of his dressing. So Monday i am most defiantly going to they gym lol. Well check back in tomorrow and i will tell you how it all went.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Moms are just that important
Today i took Gracie to my Aunt Charlotte's photography studio to have her pictures taken. Taralyn and Kayla Gracie were there. Taralyn and Kyla have had a hard life. They are the daughter's of my cousin who i grew up with. They have been taken away from their mother a number of times and now their mother is in jail. These kids have missed out on so much because of bad parenting yes i said it BAD parenting. I dont care what anybody says about how much they tried they are in jail and now those babies are being bounced around from place to place. Right now they are with Aunt Charlotte but my dad is looking into getting them hopefully on a permeate basis.
Anyway today they were at the photo studio and they were very restless driving Aunt Charlotte and Kim crazy so i offered to take the girls to the park. While we were at he park i realized just how important a mother is to a child. As we were playing Gracie grabbed my leg and said I love you mommy like she often does and i told her i love her to and then i saw the look on the girls faces. You could just see how badly they wanted a mommy to say that to. As the day went on they tried to imitate everything Gracie done to get my attention. They would pretend to hurt themselves so i would kiss and make it better, they would want me to just hold them and tell them i loved them, and they looked surprised when i told them it was ok to be a little afraid to do something because i was right here to catch them. Just simple little things that mean so much to children. It was heart breaking to see how they reacted twards simple acts of love. I know they how love feels because we have a very loving family but they crave a mother's love.
This made me make a promise to myself that i would do everything in my power to make sure my child/children never feel that way. Starting today i am going make an effort to keep myself healthy and not take any unnessary risks that may prevent me from being a mommy.
If you read this please pray that these girls get the mommy they deserve soon. Wrather it be their biological mother or someone willing to take on that responsibility. I hope Daddy and Jennifer can get them. Then they will have a mommy and they will stay with in our family where they belong.
Anyway today they were at the photo studio and they were very restless driving Aunt Charlotte and Kim crazy so i offered to take the girls to the park. While we were at he park i realized just how important a mother is to a child. As we were playing Gracie grabbed my leg and said I love you mommy like she often does and i told her i love her to and then i saw the look on the girls faces. You could just see how badly they wanted a mommy to say that to. As the day went on they tried to imitate everything Gracie done to get my attention. They would pretend to hurt themselves so i would kiss and make it better, they would want me to just hold them and tell them i loved them, and they looked surprised when i told them it was ok to be a little afraid to do something because i was right here to catch them. Just simple little things that mean so much to children. It was heart breaking to see how they reacted twards simple acts of love. I know they how love feels because we have a very loving family but they crave a mother's love.
This made me make a promise to myself that i would do everything in my power to make sure my child/children never feel that way. Starting today i am going make an effort to keep myself healthy and not take any unnessary risks that may prevent me from being a mommy.
If you read this please pray that these girls get the mommy they deserve soon. Wrather it be their biological mother or someone willing to take on that responsibility. I hope Daddy and Jennifer can get them. Then they will have a mommy and they will stay with in our family where they belong.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Easter basket quest
Today i went on a quest to make the perfect Easter basket for my little princess. I did not want to buy one of those baskets that are already put together i wanted to make one special just for her. So off i went i thought Target would be a good place to start. I went looking through the isles of pastel colored eggs bunnys and other random crap and found they all had a few things in common they were over priced cheaply made and had very little to do with the true meaning of Easter. So i grabbed a few jelly beans and chocolate covered eggs and went on to the next store. Afer about 3 stores of the same old crap i went into a crafts store. Hobby Lobby to be exact and my faith in Easter was restored. I found everything i needed to make a beautiful basket for my little princess while keeping Easter's meaning in tact. I found a Pink Easter bunny that prays when you press its hand and several Easter things that will make the perfect basket. A princess costume and a tea set should make for some memorable Easter pictures. Cant wait to see Drew sipping tea from a tiny cup lol. Anyway i found all the stuff i needed for the perfect Easter basket it will be the perfect combination of Gracie's personality, The true meaning of Easter and the love a mommy has for her baby girl. Who knew something so simple could be so complicated.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
My First Blog
This is my first blog so i guess i should tell you a little about what is going on in my life. Right now I live in Leary Georgia where we have been for almost 7 years but we are in the process of buying a house in Baconton Georgia. Baconton is about 15 min east of Albany just in case you are wondering. I love the town we live in now but i will admit i am looking forward to not having to drive 35 min just to get a loaf of bread. Leary is so far away from everything and it is just now practical for us to live here any more. We are moving into a bigger house with 3 bedrooms 2 bathrooms on almost 22 acres of land. I am so excited.
Also i am in the process of planning Gracie's 3rd birthday party. Gracie will turn 3 on May 2. Time has just flew by she is turning into a big girl it kinda makes me miss he being a baby sometimes. Anyway I am planning a Little Mermaid party for her. That is what she wanted. I always make her birthday cake so i am trying to figure out how to make the perfect mermaid birthday cake for her. I have a few ideas but it is still in the works. You will have to come to the party to see how it ends up looking. Gracie wants a scooter for her birthday. She is really picky about it 2. She wants a pink one with a basket on the front. lol So i guess the hunt is on. Wish me luck. lol
Well i guess that is what is going on for the most part. Stay tuned to see what happens next in my little world....
Also i am in the process of planning Gracie's 3rd birthday party. Gracie will turn 3 on May 2. Time has just flew by she is turning into a big girl it kinda makes me miss he being a baby sometimes. Anyway I am planning a Little Mermaid party for her. That is what she wanted. I always make her birthday cake so i am trying to figure out how to make the perfect mermaid birthday cake for her. I have a few ideas but it is still in the works. You will have to come to the party to see how it ends up looking. Gracie wants a scooter for her birthday. She is really picky about it 2. She wants a pink one with a basket on the front. lol So i guess the hunt is on. Wish me luck. lol
Well i guess that is what is going on for the most part. Stay tuned to see what happens next in my little world....
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