Karma

Karma I have always been a big believer in karma. I thought if you done good things that you would get good thing and if you done bad things bad things would happen. Well tonight i think i have lost all faith in karma. I always try to do good things. I always put others needed first even before my own. So when my dad got down on his luck and needed a loan i more than happily gave him the 5000 he needed until he got back on his feet. Well that was a few months ago and his situation has still not changed so he has been unable to pay back the loan. So this sounds like i have some good karma coming my way. Well think again. As i have stated before that bank did not like the comparison properties for the loan on our new house so it has been in upper management for them to decide what to do. Well it looks like we are going to have to put 10% down not the 5% that we had planned. Well the 10% is something that i just don't think we can to it would be stretching up just about as far as we can go and i don't want to use all the money we have in savings because if something happens we would be screwed. But here is where the karma comes in the amount that may mean the difference between us getting and loosing the house is $5000. The exact amount i lent my dad.

I don't know how to feel about this on one had my dad needed the money really bad he was about to loose his house so i don't regret giving him the money but in a way i feel by giving him the money i have let my family down. We may very well not get our house because i put someone else first. I feel horrible and all i can do is pray something works out where the 5000 does not matter. The bank is doing some kind of program trying to find some comparison homes but there is nothing saying they will find any. I am so tired of worrying about this house. I have done so many thinks for so many people this year. I just hope god and karma finally smile down on me and help us get into this house. I can not get Gracie into school or have more children until we move. The closest school is 35 miles away that puts me in the car for 3 hours a day or more just to take her to and from school. I just dont know what to do. I just pray it all works out.